The First of Novemeber

So this is the month that we tell everyone what we are thankful for. Life is so short I can't understand why we don't tell one another how much we love and appreciate them daily. Today though I choose to speak about my kids. Austin Ryan Tarkowski was my first child to come into this world. He is the one who will keep the Tarkowski name going on. Marty and I waited five years for this child to grace us with his presence yet he was not coming into this world to easy. After a c-section and forceful hands he was delivered and our family and our lives were forever changed. Austin will never know or understand how much I love him, how much he really means to me not only being my first but my only son. I hope someday he will read this and know that NO MATTER WHAT  this mom will forever love him unconditionally
Alexis Renee Tarkowski  is my second child, she is the one who slipped in under the radar until I went to give blood and was unable too. Boom the second child, a girl was coming. She is my planner, the child that has learned a such a young age to be so mature and adult like. Sometimes it scares me that so much is on her plate. I do rely on her way to much and she will never know the depth of my love and admiration for her. She is my go getter. I am at awe of her. I love her more than life herself. I hope one day she reads this and knows how much I appreciate her and admire the young woman that she has become..
When I look at these two beautiful children I can't help but wonder what their father would have thought had he gotten to see the young adults they have become. I hope LIFE brings them joy and love and an endless supply of money.
 My third child Rebecca Joy Abbate was my 40 yr. old surprise. She is that child that is keeping her mother young. In everything she does she has so much excitement and Joy. We have so much fun seeing the world through her eyes. She is so accepting and non judgmental.Without a doubt Rebecca was a gift from God to help me from having empty nest syndrome. With her sister and brother adults now she is the one who fills the void, I hope she knows that she makes the world better with just her smile and " I love you Mommy" .
Thank you God for my children each unique but equally loved and important. I couldn't see myself living without them. I pray everyday that you surround them with your protection love and grace. As a mother I just want my kids to be happy and love God not necessary in that order since God is first but yes that is what I want for the loves of my life.